Today, I was tired.
Not the kind of tired that a nap could fix, but a soul weary kind of tired. An I’ve been DOING and not really ABIDING kind of tired.
Do you know the tired I’m talking about?
I always recognize this kind of tired because, in it, my emotions sit a little too close to the surface, my words and reactions come out before they pass through my filter, and overwhelm is the dominant feeling weighing on me.
My natural tendency is to choose one extreme when I feel this way. I either want to hibernate or push through. I want to burrow under blankets and rest until I feel recharged or I want to tackle the to do list and cross off every item until I feel accomplished.
Does that sound familiar?
Today, I took a different approach.
I’m working to undo some unhealthy habits that I turn to, like hibernation or pushing until I’m exhausted. Instead, I set aside my planner for a while this afternoon (even though I had a million things that needed done) and I spent time in prayer and in the Word.
Hibernating or pushing through wouldn’t have helped the kind of tired that I was dealing with at all. It was my Soul that was tired. I needed to be refreshed in my Spirit.
And here’s the honest truth of it, the world didn’t stop spinning when I took a break to be still. Nothing feel apart. I think that’s often what we fear will happen if we take our hands off the wheel for a moment to abide.
In fact, an hour later, I’m sitting here waiting for the kids to get out of school and pulling that planner out while I sip my hot tea.
My heart feels lighter, my mind feels less chaotic, and instead of overwhelmed, I feel hopeful as I make a plan to do the things that need to get done this week.
I got the kind of rest I needed.
I wonder if the answer to our overwhelm, sometimes, is to DO a little less and ABIDE a little more.
Time in prayer and in the word is never wasted. It’s not indulgent or irresponsible. It’s time well invested.
It renews, restores, refreshes, and refocuses. It connects, corrects, and brings us into congruence with our triune God.
If you’re tired, I mean really soul tired, maybe a little abiding is the answer for you, too.
“Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit by itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you unless you abide in me.”