“God, I’m trying my best, but everyone else seems to be pushing ahead of me and getting what I so desperately want. Why?!?”
Have you ever felt like this?
Listen to John 5: 3-9.
Here a great number of disabled people used to lie—the blind, the lame, the paralyzed. One who was there had been an invalid for thirty-eight years.
When Jesus saw him lying there and learned that he had been in this condition for a long time, he asked him, “Do you want to get well?”
“Sir,” the invalid replied, “I have no one to help me into the pool when the water is stirred. While I am trying to get in, someone else goes down ahead of me.”
Then Jesus said to him, “Get up! Pick up your mat and walk.” At once the man was cured; he picked up his mat and walked.”
This man was tired of watching everyone else push right past him and get what he desired. Can you imagine the frustration of being in a space for 38 years and desperately longing to move forward towards something better, but feeling stuck, alone, and helpless?
I love that Jesus showed up and SAW this man. The man that everyone else stepped right over and shoved right past was THE VERY ONE that Jesus came to reach.
Not only that, Jesus, saw what the man longed for and DIDN’T give it to him. He gave him better.
The man only wanted to get into the pool for a chance of being helped by its’ waters.
Jesus could have given the man what he longed for. He could have picked the man up and placed him right into the pool with all of those people who’d climbed in ahead of him.
But, Jesus did abundantly more. He healed him. He called him to pick that mat up and walk, right past the people who had been stepping over him for years, into a whole life and a healed future, into something different and better.
So, sweet friend, if you’re feeling stuck, helpless, and alone, like everyone keeps stepping over you and moving past you into something that you’ve longed for; I can’t help but wonder what Jesus has in store.
Be patient. Keep telling him your heart. Trust. And when he calls you to pick up your mat and walk differently instead of following the crowd, GO, knowing full well that Jesus’ way is better.