Man, lately my life just seems to be hovering in the unknown. Have you been there, in that phase of life when things just don’t seem to make a lot of sense? I seem to be there a lot lately. It’s not even a bad thing. It’s just different for me.
I’m pretty good at just rolling with things. Although I love order and a control, I’m not to shabby at just flying by the seat of my pants sometimes too. This is different though.
This is not flying by the seat of my pants. There is still a bit of control in that. Most of the time, I still get the choice of where, when, and how to fly and when not to.
This is a little more out of my control than that. This phase of life almost seems like a roller coaster ride. There is a track and a destination and I’m barreling down it at full speed with lots of really high highs and some places where the bottom just drops out. Sometimes I’m thrown for a loop. There are some tunnels and some places where I get turned upside down a little, and sometimes I’m tempted to close my eyes when it gets a little scary.
But, I’m also tempted to give in to the ride. I want to just throw my hands in the air and scream and enjoy myself. I want to give in to the complete freedom! I don’t know exactly how this roller coaster works, but I don’t really need to. I mean, I am pretty sure I saw the end destination when I jumped on board, but every twist and every turn and every thrilling moment in between is new to me. So I just hang on tight. I mean, the operator knows what’s going on, so there is no need to worry. I can just sit back and enjoy the ride, even if I’m a little scared and a little confused and a little nervous!
Been there? Understand at all?
I know God has a plan and I can see where the destination might be, but I really don’t understand the path that’s leading me there. There are a lot of unknowns along the way. Sometimes I am at the peak and sometimes I’m down in that valley. Sometimes I’m in that tunnel where things look a little dark and I can’t see my hand in front of my face. At other times I’m turned upside down or thrown for a loop, but the operator of this ride is in total control.
After all, he isn’t just the operator, He designed the ride just for me with every detail along the way. Each high and each low was put in place for a purpose along the journey. He mapped out each turn just for me!
This roller coaster ride never surprises the operator. He knows every twist and turn, every peak and valley. All of my unknowns and completely known by him. I know he’s in total control and I trust him.
So, here’s to giving up control to the one who knows all, operates all, and designed each detail and JUST hanging on for dear life and enjoying the ride!
“Have you not heard? Long ago I ordained it. In the days of old I planned it; now I have brought it to pass.”
2 Kings 19:25
Love and blessings,