I'm a home school mama. (Yes, that's me in all my yoga panted, head banded, hoodied glory on a typical day.) I have two sweet, wild, chaotic boys that I am beyond blessed to spend my days with. Every Day. I love it. Really, I do. But, can I be honest, just like any other job, sometimes it is HARD WORK!
These boys refine me and test me and try me. They challenge me and make me a better person, a better mom, and a better Child of God. They question me... about EVERYTHING... and make me really think about things. They stretch my patience to the limits. They make me laugh and sometimes they even make me cry, because being a mama is a tough job!
Can I be honest again? Sometimes I wonder if I'm doing it right and if it's worth all the effort. I know I fail a lot. I know I get a lot right too. I hope that the scales balance and that these boys get the best I have to offer more often than not. These challenging and amazing fellas have been trusted to me by my Father and I desperately want to do right by them and by Him, so I just keep pressing on and praying hard and leaning on God for my strength.
But did I mention that it is hard work?
Things that matter typically are hard work! Things that are meaningful take a lot of effort. They are difficult because they are shaping us, growing us, and challenging us to be and do better. They require us to lean into Him for encouragement, support, and help. I think that is kind of the point.
Do you know what I just love though?
When things get tough and I get weary and begin to question myself, it is just like my loving Father to send me a little "hang in there girl, you're on the right track" message. He did that this morning. (He does it a lot, but sometimes I'm too caught up in the craziness to notice.)
I was sitting at my usual morning spot, reading my Bible and writing out a verse in my journal that spoke to me, Zechariah 13:9 ironically enough, when my sweet 9 year old walked in with his Bible and sat down beside me and began reading from his. He didn't interrupt me. I got a quick smile from this dimpled cheeked, bed headed cutie and he opened God's word and dove in. It was just what I needed this morning to give me that boost to keep on keeping on!
Zechariah 13:9 "And I will put this third into the fire,and refine them as one refines silver, and test them as gold is tested. They will call upon my name, and I will answer them. I will say, ‘They are my people’; and they will say, ‘The Lord is my God.’”
So today, whatever it is that you are pushing through, whatever work God has called you to be faithful to; I just wanted to give you a little encouragement. It can be tough. It can make you weary and you may question yourself. It is hard work and it is suppose to be.
Hang in there. You're on the right track. Keep your eyes open for little messages of encouragement from God. Keep on keeping on because he is refining you, growing you, stretching you, shaping you, and teaching you to lean into Him.
Love and blessings,