September 25, 2015
Do you ever feel like the more you learn, the more you realize that you don't know? Man, I feel that way that a lot. The more I study something or try to understand a situation that I thought I mostly understood, the more I see its complexities. I realize I didn't know as much as I thought I did. So, I keep trying to get a better understanding and as I study, some things become clear and some times I realize there is still so much I don't know. Can I be honest? Sometimes I feel that way as I look at life and it's situations. I KNOW God. I KNOW Jesus. I KNOW what He did for me. I KNOW His love. I KNOW these things because I've experienced them. I have felt His presence and I've experienced His hand on my life. I believe and have faith because I KNOW, from personal experience, of His love, mercy, Grace, and forgiveness. But, the more I read my Bible and study the character of God, the more I understand how much of a mystery He is. His ways are so far above mine that sometimes I just have to trust in complete faith. That's a big part of faith, the act of just believing. I love studying the Old Testament because I love learning about God's character. I've learned so much about His love, His mercy, His patience, His kindness and His long suffering. I've learned how gracious He is to a people who just can't seem to get it right and continually fail Him. I've learned that He is true to His word. I've also learned that He is so much more than I could grasp. I've learned I can't comprehend all He does and all He allows. I don't fully understand the plan. BUT He sees the beginning and the end and works accordingly. He isn't limited at all by the tiny view of things that I am limited by. This morning in my Bible reading, I was just awe struck by a couple of verses. 1Kings 12:15 says "...for this turn of events was from the Lord to fulfill His word..." And 1Kings 12:24 says..."for this is my doing..." Wow! What a powerful, mighty, sovereign God! His hand can be seen in everything! The good and the seemingly bad. Both of these verses reference situations that weren't particularly pleasant at the time. But, they show God working out His master plan to bring His people back to Him. Because He loves them that much. Because He is good and mighty and sovereign. I can only relate it to this; just like sometimes as a parent, I have to allow my kiddos to experience both the good and the bad of life to be a loving parent, our Father allows us the same opportunity. Because that is a part of His character too. He is rightous and just. He is sovereign. He is omnipotent. He is a good Father who looks at the long term when He is growing and shaping His children. So, even though I don't always understand the situation I'm walking though, I can trust in Him because I KNOW the one who is in control of it. I KNOW His plan for me is good and that His purpose is for me to grow closer to Him. I don't have to understand or to have all the answers, because I trust the one who does.