Do you ever feel like the more you learn, the more you realize that you don't know?  Man, I feel that way that a lot.  The more I study something or try to understand a situation that I thought I mostly understood, the more I see its complexities.  I realize I didn't know as much as I thought I did.  So, I keep trying to get a better understanding and as I study, some things become clear and some times I realize there is still so much I don't know. Can I be honest?  Sometimes I feel that way as I look at life and it's situations. I KNOW God.  I KNOW Jesus.  I KNOW what He did for me.  I KNOW His love.  I KNOW these things because I've experienced them.  I have felt His presence and I've experienced His hand on my life.  I believe and have faith because I KNOW, from personal experience, of His love, mercy, Grace, and forgiveness. But, the more I read my Bible and study the character of God, the more I understand how much of a mystery He is.  His ways are so far above mine that sometimes I just have to trust in complete faith.  That's a big part of faith, the act of just believing. I love studying the Old Testament because I love learning about God's character.  I've learned so much about His love, His mercy, His patience, His kindness and His long suffering.  I've learned how gracious He is to a people who just can't seem to get it right and continually fail Him.  I've learned that He is true to His word. I've also learned that He is so much more than I could grasp.  I've learned I can't comprehend all He does and all He allows.  I don't fully understand the plan. BUT He sees the beginning and the end and works accordingly.  He isn't limited at all by the tiny view of things that I am limited by. This morning in my Bible reading, I was just awe struck by a couple of verses.  1Kings 12:15 says "...for  this turn of events was from the Lord to fulfill His word..."  And 1Kings 12:24 says..."for this is my doing..." Wow!  What a powerful, mighty, sovereign God!  His hand can be seen in everything!  The good  and the seemingly bad. Both of these verses reference situations that weren't particularly pleasant at the time.  But, they show God working out His master plan to bring His people back to Him.  Because He loves them that much.  Because He is good and mighty and sovereign. I can only relate it to this;  just like sometimes as a parent, I have to allow my kiddos to experience both the good and the bad of life to be a loving parent, our Father allows us the same opportunity.  Because that is a part of His character too.  He is rightous and just.  He is sovereign.  He is omnipotent.  He is a good Father who looks at the long term when He is growing and shaping His children. So, even though I don't always understand the situation I'm walking though, I can trust in Him because I KNOW the one who is in control of it.  I KNOW His plan for me is good and that His purpose is for me to grow closer to Him. I don't have to understand or to have all the answers, because I trust the one who does.
Man, sometimes life can be difficult!  It seems like so many people that I love are under attack right now.  I've been under attack.  Sometimes things get hard.  It can be easy to feel a little overwhelmed by the chaos and strife that is just an ugly part of life. Sickness, loss of loved ones, hurt, discontent, job loss, distraction, discouragement...  The list can go on and on.  And it often does.  Sometimes the casualties of life just pile up and we lose heart a little. I was reading in 2 Samuel today and just felt really connected to David.  He just struggled sometimes.  This poor guy has gone through it all. He came from a poor family.  He spent the better part of his life under attacks from his king, his enemies, even his own family.  He failed God is some pretty big ways and had to deal with some pretty big consequences as a result.  He lost loved ones.  He was shamed and ridiculed and his people turned against him.  He just seems to be constantly dealing with life.  He had every reason to get discouraged and lose heart.  But through it all, God stood beside him and walked him through his trials.  God loved him, disciplined him when necessary, and blessed him when he did right.  And through it all, David kept his eyes on God and never forgot who He was. This morning as I was sitting here just honestly feeling a little overwhelmed, I came upon 2 Samuel 22.  Phew!  If you ever need a little pick me up or some encouragement, read it and let it remind you who God is. David reminded me this morning that God is flawless.  He is my rock, my shield, and my salvation.  He is alive!  He is my savior who delivers me and preserves me.  God is mighty.  He arms me with strength and stoops down to make me great.  He is God and He is worthy of praise. He is my fortress, my refuge, my support, my stronghold, my salvation, my rock, and my shield.  He rescues me from my enemies. He is faithful.  He is blameless.  He is pure. With My God, darkness is turned to light.  With Him, I can advance.  With Him, I can scale the walls that hold me back.  He avenges me and gives me victory. He reached down from on high and took hold of me.  He drew me out of deep waters .  He rescued me and delights in me.  When I call out to Him, He hears me. God lives.  He is my rock.  He is exalted.  He is my savior.  He shows me unfailing kindness. When I sit and read 2 Samuel, I'm reminded that He is in control of the chaos.  He brings beauty from ashes and He works things for my good because He loves me.  He is on my side and fights for me.  That discouragement and distraction that I was feeling just flee in the face of who He is. Love and blessings, Bobbie
Do you have a friend that you just feel connected deeply to, like a soul sister?  There is just a really strong bond that binds you two together.  You love them so much that you would do anything for them.  You have even risked your own happiness to be sure that they were happy. Those soul sister relationships are amazing! This morning I was reading through the 1 Samuel account of the friendship of Johnathan and David.  I've always been drawn to this friendship.  It just seems like such a beautiful picture of the kind of relationship that we all want. This friendship was built on love, trust, and care and concern for the other.  1 Sam 18:2 says that the soul of Jonathan was knit with the soul of David.  Man! Who doesn't want a friendship like that, one where your very souls are knit together! How does that even happen?  How does that even look?  It's so vastly different than most friendships we see. One of my favorite verses about this relationship, and what I think sets it apart from most friendships is 1Sam 23:16.  "And Saul's son Jonathan went to David at Horesh and helped him find strength in God." Wow! I'm telling you, there is a big difference between friendships and real, intimate, authentic soul sister relationships.  There is a depth to these soul sister friendships that just goes beyond the norm.  And for me, one of the things that solidifies these soul sister friendships  is that characteristic of strengthening and encouraging one another in God. That's a big deal. A friend can give me advice and listen to me talk.  They can even help, but a soul sister takes you to the feet of Jesus.  They go there with you in prayer and keep you there with their conversation and actions.  They cover you in His love and bathe you in His truth. Spending time with them is like getting a little glimpse of Jesus. I can remember praying earnestly that God would just send me some real soul sisters to encourage me and draw me closer to Him when I was in a difficult season in life. God answered that prayer and I couldn't be more grateful! I've been blessed with a couple of nearly lifelong friendships that I just treasure beyond measure.  They mean the world to me!  However, in the last several years God has knit my heart together with several women in ways that can only be described as divine.  They are my mentors and counsellors.  They are my prayer warriors and ministry partners.  They are the ones who know the nitty gritty, real parts of me and love me anyway. They are also the ones who constantly go with me, hand in hand, to the feet of Jesus. Friends, I can't even begin to describe what an answer to prayer these friends are.  Seek these people out.  Pray for God to send you these soul sisters to strengthen you in God, just like Jonathan and David.  Be the real and authentic you that God created you to be so that these friends can be grounded and genuine.  Ask God to grow your friendships into those soul sisterhoods that you long for.  He is able. And to my soul sisters, I love you.  Thank you for always helping me to find my strength in God. Love and blessings, Bobbie [...]
Today I was reminded of two little words that instantly create a bond.  These two little words can quickly turn strangers in to friends. me too I spoke at our local MOPS meeting on repurposing.  More accurately, I spoke about the work of repurposing furniture and drew some parallels to the way that Jesus has repurposed my life. I was a little nervous.  Speaking doesn't really bother me.   What made me nervous was that I really felt led to drop any pretenses and just be vulnerable and transparent.  Just putting myself out there has always been a little difficult for me.  I have a lot of baggage and a lot of junk.  It's not always easy to just leave all of that exposed. It's scary. but It's also beautiful in the hands of God.  And sometimes necessary. You see, by sharing our story- even the ugly parts- we can show the work that God has done to repurpose us.  We can show the way he has turned messy into a masterpiece.  We can show that nothing is ever too broken to be remade into something beautiful in His hands.  And maybe, hopefully, we can give a little encouragement to someone who knows all too well what it means to be a little worn and tattered. As I spoke today, I looked out into the faces of His beautiful daughters and I didn't see looks of condemnation or judgement.  I saw smiles and some tears.  I saw nods of agreement and lips mouthing "me too".  I felt such love and encouragement.  I felt such connection and community.  I felt my walls crumbling. Those walls that we build around ourselves as protection crumble a little when people are brave enough to be vulnerable .  I think sometimes, God calls us to that type of vulnerability and openness as a way to not only point to His love and mercy and grace, but to connect us to others.  Aren't we all part of the same body? Reach out.  Be bold.  Share.  Encourage.  Uplift.  Point to Jesus.  Connect with people.  Let them see that you are an imperfect person, living your life to glorify a perfect Jesus, so that they can look you in the eyes and say "me too". Love and blessings, Bobbie